I cannot believe they are at it again.  I have almost completed a project which I believe was the wrong approach to solving a problem.  However, I was given orders.  What makes it so bad, is that our main technology person endorsed this.  I also complained about the approach not addressing reliability and availability.   THEY INDICATED WE WOULD ADDRESS THAT AT LATER.  However, when people began to attack and criticize what the PM had not done this person was the first amongst the pack.  This project has basically been done with no funding support, no management support, and more importantly I controlled none of the resources.  Same old story.

I will have to compose my PM manifesto.  We are never appreciated.

Things are getting crazier by the day at work.  I understand we are going through a major culture shift, but some of the things that I see are just not right.  They are actually very foul.  I do not care what level you are trying to get on, there are some things you just do not do to other people.

Things continue to get bad at work.  I am now asking myself why am I working.   I believe I am having a mid-life job crisis thing.  It is not a mid-life crisis, because I am not questioning everything…just work.

I get the feeling that I am under siege at work.  It is so bad that I am no longer sure if I am doing the right thing.  I guess that is where Rudyard Kipling’s “If” comes in.  Also, prayers to God to keep me and guide me. 

Amen.

I get the feeling that I am being forged in the swirling ebbs of fire. Give me strength oh Lord, and a fire extinguisher.

Amen

Sometimes I wake up and believe that I am in the wrong place and time in regards to my occupation.  I believe I need to do some soul searching to determine if I want to continue working where I am.  Once my job was rewarding, and I really looked forward to going to work.  I once felt really good about what I was doing because I, in my mind, was helping people…once…

Perhaps it is the change that is occurring within the organization that has me like this.  I just have to determine how I fit in. 

You know I get up everyday as most responsible Adults do and go to a job.  However, in my case my job is never 9 to 5.  It is continuously demanding more and more time with no compensation outside of the regular salary.  I believe today was really one of those days.  So overwhelmed that I did not know where to begin.  I have actually started to have to keep to do list that seem to get more and more things added before I can finish them.  All of this has made me wonder what it would be like to have a job at doing something that you liked or loved?  Can you tell me what the felling is like?  I would sure like to know because I am not sure I will ever experience that feeling…

No Cheers.